Walking the Rim

Armen found that he was well suited to the job at the sewer plant. It was certainly more stable than the jobs he’d held down on the coast. He was invigorated by the walk he took out on the steel deck every morning to take samples of raw and partially treated sewage. Sometimes he felt the atomized sewage dampen his face, and he was amused to find that he was enjoying himself.

The dirty work was good medicine, but Armen would feel even better with cash in his pocket. Inconveniently, his paycheck would be deposited directly into his bank account, so he’d need to take a bus up to Yosemite Valley to get his hands on his pay. When he got to the bank, he couldn’t remember his PIN, so he wouldn’t be buying a ride back home.

Armen walked to the village cemetery and found a grave marker that simply said “A BOY.” It struck Armen as profound, but he didn’t know why. He sat down and puzzled over it for a while, and then he got to his feet and walked over to the village store. He emptied his pockets on a couple cans of citrus soda for a water and energy and set off for his cabin in El Portal. Not wishing to walk the narrow, bus-stuffed highway, he opted to hike home by way of the north rim. It would be a couple miles shy of thirty, but he wasn’t in any hurry. No one was waiting for him.

He caught a shuttle from the Village to the Lodge, and hiked up to the rim from there. The dry season was well under way, and the black oaks and manzanita had begun their long, slow roast. As he ascended the sunward wall, his boots slipped a little with every step on the eroded granite. He’d stop occasionally to inhale the aroma of slowly burning vegetation.

El Portal & Foresta

Above the falls, the route turned up Eagle Peak Creek, passed behind Eagle Peak, and then crossed Eagle Creek. With so many eagles on the map, he frequently looked upward to check the sky. It occurred to him that the cliffs of Yosemite’s sunny side must be a great habitat for birds of prey. The thermals must be incredible, he thought, and the visibility for predation unsurpassed.

Where the trail passed El Capitan, he turned off onto the side trail to the great monolith, and he continued over the summit to the top of the twenty-eight hundred foot cliff, where he sat down to mitigate his sudden sense of profound vulnerability and soak up some sun. While gazing over the massive granite cliff, he felt the lure of the void. He felt as though something in him wanted to leap off the edge, something in him that he feared as much as any beast, and he felt his hackles stiffen. He rubbed them down and shook off the charge of fear. A moment later, he eyed a pair of turkey vultures soaring upward on an afternoon thermal. Their wings teetered nervously as if they were each on a high wire. He lay back on the stone roof, and played his best possum. He watched the soaring vultures through the shield of his eyelashes. He thought of Cindy, how she so loved to play possum for vultures, and how she’d made such an art—or religion—of it. He recalled a recent news story: A pair of Japanese climbers had recently frozen to death on the cliff face, just fifty feet below where he lay sunning. He closed his eyes and took a short nap.

Armen returned to the trail, and proceeded west behind Fireplace Bluffs and the Cascades to Foresta, a pleasant, shaded residential community above the canyon. “Foresta” was an appropriate name for the place, though not without irony. He wound down the road to the falls as the short early summer night fell, and he continued to tromp blindly down into the canyon. His feet began to ache. At one point, the white stripe of a skunk bounced out in front of him. Rather than running off into the bushes alongside the road, it proceeded to lead Armen down the dark road; an unwelcome guide in the dark. Together, they crept around yet another Eagle Peak—the one that stands above the town of El Portal. Armen managed to get to his cabin without getting skunked. When he got to his door, the village dog was sleeping on the step.

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Back to School

Armen didn’t have much going on beside his work for the Dorahs, so he helped them now and then at the dairy. Though his presence was sorely desired at the empty Adroushan nest, his presence also thickened and reinforced the palpability of loss, and it served to feed and encourage Cindy’s ghosts. He could hardly bear to stay home, but he wasn’t quite ready to move far away, so he assented to Sue’s proposition by applying to Fresno City College. Grandma and Grandpa Adroushan invited him to stay with them if he didn’t have other plans, and he didn’t, so he moved into their guest room, and he stayed there through his year at City College and his first year at Fresno State University. It was an agreeable arrangement for everyone involved. Garegin and Siran would miss Armen, but he would be under the watch of Garegin’s parents and sleeping in Garegin’s old bedroom. Armen worked through his second college summer at Wawona, and when he transferred to Fresno State University, he rented a room closer to the university. He took geology as a major, and graduated in good time.

During his final year of college, Armen didn’t think much about what he would do after graduation. He didn’t look very hard for career positions, and he didn’t apply to graduate school. He didn’t even plan to attend commencement until his parents made it clear that they planned to attend.

Soon after commencement, Armen happened across an ad for a job at Yosemite’s main wastewater treatment plant, just down river from the village of El Portal. He mailed his resume and cover letter to the park. Several days later, he got a call.

The voice was deliberate. “I just want to make sure that you understand this position involves frequent exposure to sewage. Do you understand that?”

Armen paused, then he assured the man on the phone that he understood fully. The man then reworded his disclaimer, just to make sure that Armen understood, and Armen repeated his answer. The thought didn’t trouble Armen in the least. If anything, it appealed to him.

When the time came to leave, Armen jumped on the Yosemite bus and took it as far as Wawona, and then he backpacked up the Chilnualna Falls trail. Night fell as he stepped past the falls. He unrolled his bag against a stone trail cut, and fought against the steady wind and rocky ground to get some sleep. The next day, he backpacked north to the rim of Yosemite Valley, where he spent his second night on the plateau, thirty-five hundred feet above the valley lights. He unrolled his bag and basked beneath the cool stars of late spring. He didn’t light a fire. It had been a long time since he’d lit a fire, and he wasn’t quite prepared to resume that practice.

The next morning, he descended into the valley. He rode the shuttle buses, and ambled along the river, visited the falls, and watched the tourists and park employees. In the evening, he caught a bus down to an employee housing complex just outside the park in El Portal, where he found his assigned cabin.

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Homecoming

The southbound bus rolled into the Fresno Greyhound Depot at daybreak. Armen stretched as he stood up, picked up his textbook and notepad, and stepped up the bus aisle with his hands stepping from seat to seat. After claiming his pack, he picked up a Sunday Bee, sat down against the depot wall, and scanned the front page. He looked out across Broadway, and dug out the classifieds. After locating the jobs section, he slid a pen out of his notepad’s spiral binding and circled several ads. He paused and crossed out several of the circles. He looked out across the quiet street, got up, and heaved on his backpack.

He walked up to Fulton Mall with the fat Bee in his right hand and his notepad and book in his left, and he followed Fulton to Armeniantown, where his old church had stood before it burned down. He half-expected the old Armenian Presbyterian church to be there still. The orthodox church was still standing nearby, laid out like a prostrate crucifix in the old world style. He ambled toward the exotic edifice, dropped his pack, and sat on the steps to read the news.

Armenian Apostolic Church, Fresno

 

After some time, the church doors opened, and people began to appear for services. Armen lifted up his pack, and ascended the steps. Aware of his long black hair and thick Armenian beard, he apologized in Armenian to one of the greeters at the entry for his appearance, and asked for permission to attend services with his backpack, explaining that he’d just returned from college. The old man seemed to recognize him, or something about him, smiled, and welcomed him in.

Armen’s seated himself in the second row from the back, and read the Armenian and English text that arched above the altar: “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another.” He settled back into the pew for the service and liturgy, absorbing the warm incense and Armenian chants. The great saints overhead basked in the mingling firelight of the candles inside and the sun outside. The church interior glowed as though it were a great brick candelabrum ablaze. He felt the ancestral Armenian love of fire arise in his veins, and leaned back like a sun worshiper on a hot park bench. He nearly spread his arms along the back of the pew, but then thought better of it.

After the liturgy, he picked up his pack and hiked up Ventura Avenue and First Street, and navigated the massive grid to his grandparents’ home in the prematurely aging heart of the city.

He wasn’t surprised to find his parents there. It was Sunday, after all. But they were all surprised to see him. It was not as though he never called, but he didn’t always publish his itinerary—not that he didn’t want people to know where he’d be; it just didn’t occur to him to inform them. He’d figured the Dorahs would have made some kind of announcement on his behalf.

It wasn’t easy for them to encounter each other. When the Adroushans had lost Cindy they lost Armen’s company, though he at least was still within a three-hour drive, at the end of a phone line or the door of a post office box. Face-to-face, neither parents nor son dared speak of Cindy. Siran’s face spoke volumes. She seemed to have aged ten years. Their throats would lock up whenever a conversation threatened to approach Cindy’s memory, and they feared the feelings that would be laid bare if she might be mentioned among her survivors. It was difficult amid strangers, but it was a terror among loved ones.

That evening, Armen returned to Slough City with his parents and moved into his old room. As expected, the house was haunted, so he had to get out whenever he could. He didn’t resent his mother for her grief, but that only made it harder for him. He didn’t waste any time before approaching the Dorahs regarding finding Sam.

Armen expected that his best chance of finding Sam would involve finding Walker first. He drove the old pickup up to the Lewis Camp Trailhead and headed up the Little Kern. He found Walker several days later at Mulkey Meadows, near the edge of the Great Wall. The cowboy didn’t have any knowledge of Sam’s whereabouts, or at least he wouldn’t confess any. Armen was disappointed, but he’d been prepared for this likely contingency. “Look,” he said, “I’m sure he’s fine so long as you’re on the Range—” He looked at the cowboy’s face for clues. Was Sam okay? He continued. “—but come Autumn, he’s going to need my help.” The cowboy kept his poker face. Armen went on. “I don’t need to know where he is. He needs to know where to go for provisions. All I ask is that you give him this, and tell him to take it all if he wants more.” Armen handed the cowboy a map that indicated several drop points in the area, each indicated by a triangle and a date. He had two copies on him; one for Walker and one for Sam. He had no intention of giving up his hunt for Sam, but he didn’t want the cowboy to know that. He stayed with the cowboy for three nights, hoping that Walker might reveal something or that Sam might happen by. After he left the cowboy, he camped on a ridge nearby and watched the meadow from above. After several days of that, he headed down to Golden Trout Creek where he could fish. If he ran out of food, he’d have to head out. After a week of petite creek trout he headed down into the Big Ditch where the fish would be more filling. The next morning, he found the cowboy’s copy of the map on the edge of his fire ring, under a river rock paperweight. He took that as a cue to move on. He hoped it meant that Sam had got the message. It was enough of a sign to take back to the Dorahs.

It appeared that Armen had guessed right. The provision packs were being collected and tidily cleared out. After a year of monthly drops, Sue returned from college and volunteered to take over for Armen. She insisted that he go to college. She said that she could drop supplies as well or better than he could, and that he needed to get on with life.

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Spelunking

One day in autumn, while Armen was sitting in the sun by a cave entrance puzzling over the old Recipient’s book, a ragged greybeard emerged from the cave entrance. At first, Armen thought the man had said something to him, but he quickly realized that the man was just muttering to himself. Armen nodded at him, and continued his reading. This occurred again and again over several days before Armen thought he’d try muttering to himself when the old man passed. He found it hard to do without interacting. When he heard the old spelunker cursing and scolding himself, saying “what the Hell do you think you’re doing?,” Armen let slip a response, saying “What does it look like?” and lifted his book toward the man.

The old spelunker stopped in his tracks, but kept muttering.

“The question is,” Armen asked as though he hadn’t already heard the man ask himself, “What the Hell are you doing?”

“Exploring!” was the man’s enthusiastic answer.

“I didn’t know there were unexplored places down there” Armen replied.

The old man creaked and groaned as he set himself down. Armen tried to ignore the odors that struck him every time the man moved.

California, before plate tectonics (Murchie)

 

“I didn’t say it was unexplored” the man replied.

“But you’re exploring it anyway?”

“You might say that. You also might say I’m exploring new ways to explore old caves.”

“I see … I think … For example?”

The man barked out a laugh. Armen noticed another foul odor striking the air. “Sure you want to hear it?”

“Why not?”

“Alright.” The man paused. “I crawl the caves of the mind.”

“Okay,” Armen muttered while digesting the man’s words. “But that’s a real cave.”

“No doubt,” the man declared. “You don’t think the caves of the mind are real?”

“No. I mean, the caves of the mind—that’s a metaphor. That cave is rea—physical.”

“Hmmm.” The man paused. “You don’t think the caves of the mind are physical?”

“Well, I guess I—I always thought everything in the mind was mental.”

“Well, sure. If it’s in the mind it must be mental, right?”

“Yeah. But you think—you think the mental is physical?”

“Why not?”

“Well it’s fine, I guess … but why do you need to explore that physical cave, if you’re exploring the physical cave in your head?”

“I don’t know if I need to. I guess it’s just that one cave can teach you something about another.”

“You mean—a metaphor?”

“Oh, if you insist, why not.”

The old man bade Armen a good day, creaked and groaned his way to his feet, and went on his way. Armen wondered if he’d offended the greybeard.

The next time that Armen encountered the old spelunker, he greeted him with “I meant to ask: what have you found in there?”

“Madness” the greybeard growled.

“That’s what you found in the caves?”

“You expected me to find something else?”

“In the caves of your own mind? I don’t—I don’t know you well enough to say you’re crazy.”

“Well I thank you for your modesty, son, but the fact of the matter is that I am—quite mad, but you should know me well enough to see that.”

“I hardly know you at all.” Armen stroked a river rock between his fingers.

The man glanced nervously at the stone. “You must know me well enough to see that I’m a man.”

“Sure.”

“That ought to be enough evidence for you. If you live long enough, you’ll figure it out for yourself someday. Humans are mad. There are many intelligent animals, but there is only one mad animal.

“Mad?”

“Mad as fire, kid”

“I see … but surely we can’t be all that bad.”

“Who said anything about bad?” the old man corrected. “I said mad.”

“Well mad can’t be very good.”

“Why not? Some delusions are beautiful. Some delusions create beautiful things. Look around you. Bridges. Jet planes. Rockets. We have filled the world with beautiful, crazy dreams.”

“But we’re nuts.”

“Castles in the sand. Certifiable”

Armen groped for a change of subject. “What’s this rock doing here?” he muttered. “This is granite, right?”

“I’d rather not get into that,” the spelunker started. “Questions like that’ll make you crazy.”

“What? Rocks? How can rocks make me crazy?”

“I’m proof—documented; but you—you just think about it. Think about it long enough and hard. Don’t let me stop ya. Go ahead. Make your own mistakes. Just try to keep in your depth. I’m just warnin’ ya.”

“I’m just wondering how this rock got here.”

“Yeah it sounds innocent enough, doesn’t it? Just be careful. Keep an eye out for that ledge. That’s all I’m sayin’.”

“Okay. Look: you said yourself madness isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Now do you have any idea what this rock’s doing here?”

“Depends what you mean.”

“I mean, this is local rock, isn’t it?”

“Oh, yeah. Good chance of that.”

“There’s exposed granite up around Bonny Doon. I’ve seen it.”

The man glanced at the stone. “Granite. Close enough. Got a problem with that?”

“This textbook says we’re sitting on the Pacific Plate. That’s an ocean plate.”

“Ah, so what’s granite doing here, eh? What’s with the marble caves, eh? Uh-humm!”

“Well?”

“Well you can’t look at this like two dinner plates sliding against each other. More like they crashed into each other. More like a car crash, really. Bent steel, broken glass, body parts flying this way and that.”

“Alright. So this is some chunk of—North America?”

“So it seems.”

“Okay, but I don’t see any other granite anywhere in the neighborhood.”

“No, I don’t suppose you do, but that rock wasn’t born yesterday, you know. It could travel quite a distance in, say, ninety million years or so.”

“Down a mountain?”

“Up a coastline. Think about it. I’ve got better things to do. See you around.”

The man stood up and walked up the gully banks.

Armen looked at the rock and put it down at his side. He opened the old geology textbook on his lap and began to leaf through it. He had long known that coastal California was slowly moving north-northwest toward Alaska, but how fast? Where had it been ninety or a hundred or fifty million years ago? Where was there granite on the east side of the San Andreas Fault. It didn’t take him long to find a candidate: the Range. He was used to thinking the Range was far from the fault, but far to the south, at the tip of its curved tail the igneous mass touched the fault. How convenient that it would end there, he thought—or maybe it hadn’t ended there at all. Maybe it had been broken in two by the fault. Maybe he was sitting on the severed tail of the Range at that very moment, after he had made such a point of leaving the Range behind.

One morning, there was a knock on Armen’s door. When he answered the door, he was surprised to find Mr. and Mrs. Dorah standing there. They told him that since Cindy’s disappearance, Sam had never left the Range for long. Whether he’d thought Cindy was still alive up there somewhere or whether he just felt close to her up there he wouldn’t say. Regardless of Sam’s motives, his parents were worried about his chances of survival with all the time he spent in the mountains. He really wasn’t much of a survivalist. He could fish, and he knew about various edibles, but he sure wasn’t a hunter. Even if he had been, his mind just wasn’t on survival. He needed someone to look in on him now and then. “Not all the time,” Mr. Dorah said, “just now and again. We’ll make it worth your while, and we’ll provide all the transportation you need.”

Armen let the Dorahs out without an answer. Several days later, he looked up to see a smoke plume rising from the mountains. “Fire season,” he said to himself. “The severed tail wags on.” He phoned the Dorahs to tell them he’d take them up on their offer.

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On Campus

Armen turned the page, and the large feather began to slide out of the book. He caught the feather, and he began to inspect it. He ran his finger along the edge of it. It had a gold sheen in the light. He lifted it and waved it through the air, and he put it back in its place and he closed the book. He thought about what the book’s author had said about work and college. He thought about the Recipients, their new age lexicon and new word order. “It’s a great time to receive the memos,” they’d said. All the prophets of old had spoken of this time. Great things had been foreordained for 1984. Even Armen knew that.

The next day, Armen went into town to look for work. He soon got a custodial job at the university and quit his job at the Recipient colony.

The university campus sits above town, straddling three broad ridges. There are grassy slopes overlooking Monterey Bay, oak woodlands, and deep forests of Coast Redwood and Douglas fir. Wooden footbridges span deep, shaded ravines between sunny ridges.

To Armen, it was all very reminiscent of the Range.

Sometimes a lone student walking through the woods might remind him of Cindy. She might cradle a book in her forearm and have a bookpack slung over her shoulder like a quiver, and this being Santa Cruz, a student’s attire might not be the farthest thing from that of a wood nymph. It didn’t take Armen’s eye much prompting, for one sees what one wants to see—or what one needs to see, or expects to see. Some call it confirmation bias, but they could just as well call it pattern completion.

Armen had no problem passing for a student, especially at this particularly unorthodox Left Coast campus where the only grades assigned were “pass” and “no record.” This was Santa Cruz, after all, and he had access to a custodial key ring. He could blend in enough to sneak a shower, lounge in one of the libraries, or even sit in on a lecture now and then.

One day, Armen discovered the name “Cave Gulch” on a campus map, and set out one weekend to see what that gulch had to offer, and indeed, he found a cave there, and continued to find more as he explored over the following weeks.

The campus is situated on the site of Gold Rush era marble quarries. The three ridges of the campus are laced with marble, hence the caves. The marble is there because limestone was cooked by the heat of an underlying mass of molten rock. That molten mass would eventually cool into a giant granitic mass called a pluton. The pluton has not yet been exhumed by erosion in the immediate vicinity of the campus, though it’s betrayed by the quartz diorite stones and boulders that litter local streambeds.

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Holy Land

In 1963, a full hundred solar years after Husayn declared himself to be the Promised One of all Promises, and a quarter century after I had joined the Flock, I attended the inauguration of the next great epoch of the End of Days, as the Flock was transformed into the Letter Day Recipients of the Memoranda of the Men on the Mountain. After the passing of a full hundred years, memoranda would now be issued on a regular basis from God’s mountain to the World Flock. Inspired by the spirit of that august occasion, I traveled to Iran to visit the place where it all began.

I met my friend and fellow Recipient Mehran at Tehran airport. He drove me into town and we had a delicious supper at a pleasant little Armenian restaurant. I noticed various portraits of volcanoes hanging on the walls. “Why all the volcanoes?” I inquired.

Mehran explained to me that the featured mountains were the symbols of Iran and Armenia: the mountains Damavand and Ararat, respectively. “It’s a message of peace,” he said. I nodded several times in approval.

We chatted innocuously, careful not to broach any political controversies, in the spirit of obedience. It was just as well. The current Islamic uprising, led by Ruhollah Khomeini, was something of an embarrassment. After all of the sacrifices and martyrdoms of the Gatebreakers, why did all the protesters who followed this man find it necessary to start an entirely new uprising? It seemed like an incredible waste of effort, to say nothing of blood.

The mansion at Takor

Mehran drove me to my hotel after dinner. He gave me a day to let my clock catch up, and then he dropped in the next morning, and he drove me out east of the city toward Damavand. We drove over a couple high ridges into the Caspian Sea watershed and wound around the eastern shoulder of the mammoth mountain. We stopped and drove up the side of the mountain to get out and stretch our legs. I wasn’t about to challenge the summit.

As we descended to the car, Mehran spotted something in the grass and bent down to pick it up. It was a huge reddish-brown feather. It looked like an eagle feather. Mehran handed it to me and declared, “We welcome you to Iran!” I bowed playfully, received the feather, and held it as we returned to the car.

Our first destination would be up the Noor River. We made a left at the confluence of the Noor and the river we’d been following since well before Damavand. The Noor River is well named. The canyon that it follows is broad and sunny. Though the river flows through the heart of the Alborz Mountains, it’s cut deep into the range, so the day gets warm. The road is narrow but doesn’t wind much, so we got to Takor in good time. We sat on the front porch of the holy mansion in the warm shade and watched the river until the caretaker walked up. I was holding the feather that Mehran had found on Damavand, and the old caretaker glanced at it and said a few words with a wink. Mehran translated, “You have a Seemorgh feather. Good luck!”

“I have a what?” I asked Mehran.

“A Seemorgh feather. It’s a legendary bird, like a phoenix, only it doesn’t burn up. It just gives you its feathers to burn.”

“What for? Good luck?”

“Sure. It’s like a genie. Burn the feather and the Seemorgh helps you with your problem.”

I gazed out over the river, and I imagined two boys playing catch down in the floodplain past the riverbank. One was a teenager, a young man, and the other was a little boy. Each had his baseball glove and cap, though their faces and voices were very Iranian. They were speaking Persian. The little boy had good form for his age. I figured his big brother had taught him well.

Husayn and John never played baseball, of course. When they were boys, baseball could hardly be said to have existed in America, much less Iran. That was just my American mind imagining two American archetypes; the older brother looking after the younger, making sure he grew up straight, and more importantly, got his baseball mechanics down. Of all the biased and contradictory accounts of these brothers’ lives, all agree that the boys were close, that the older nurtured and spoke well of the younger. But the trials of adulthood, family, upheaval, power, and exile would exact a heavy toll on their brotherhood.

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Abbas and Sons

“my country is the world, and my religion is to do good.”
—Thomas Paine, 1791 C.E.

1795. The sun burned above the high Iranian plateau, and its heat rolled over the land. It gave heat and only heat. It was a dark sun, for there were no eyes to see it. It burned upon the city of the blind; a city of people without eyes. All the eyes of the city had been plucked out and piled in the city square by the shah.

Abbas of Noor

The shah destroyed the city, and the survivors among the blind scattered into the darkness around them.

This shah was the founder of a new dynasty, so he established a new capital city for his new dynasty. His chosen site was far to the north, near the holy mountain Damavand, out of whose heart the ancients said the evil Dahhak would rise at the end of the world.

Tehran has remained the capital of Iran ever since.

The creation of the new capital at Tehran was an economic bonanza for the locals, and many men from the surrounding villages profited. The modest town grew into a great city, and eventually became one of the most populous cities in the world.

In the heart of modern Iran’s highest mountains, just beyond the holy one, there is a river called Light, and the country that the river flows through is also called Light. In that high country lived a man named Abbas, who was to play a role in a great upheaval though he would not live to find out about it.

Abbas moved down from the mountains to seek his fortune in Tehran. He got work as minister to a prince, and then he was promoted to governor of two provinces. Abbas enjoyed substantial wealth until he made the mistake of criticizing the Prime Minister.

Abbas was stripped of his governorship. Having lost his livelihood, he had to sell most of his properties to support his large household. He died only five years after losing his government office.

Now the family that survived Abbas was not itself blacklisted by the government. We know that at least one of his eight surviving sons was offered an office in the ministry, but that son, Husayn, declined the offer, perhaps out of loyalty to his deceased father. It is not known what Husayn did do for a living in lieu of the ministry. He was known to have once said that a puppet show that he had seen as a child inspired him to live a life of detachment from the trappings of the world. On the other hand, we know that he had two wives and about six children by age 34, so we know for a fact that he failed to avoid that particular trapping. We might consider that as a young nobleman, he may not have had many marketable skills outside of the ministry. Maybe he had his sights on a political career. As a nobleman, he could possibly get a position in government if power were to change hands. Perhaps he could lead an opposition movement.

Five years after Abbas died, Husayn and his brother John joined the Gatebreaker uprising, a militant millenarian movement that shook Iran for many years. The violent aftershocks of the rebellion shake Iran to this very day.

The shah died and another shah took his place, but that change did not change the outlook for the rebellion. Husayn and John remained steadfast to the Gatebreaker cause, and being of the noble birth, both took positions of leadership in the movement. John was appointed to become the leader of the movement once its founder was executed. He was in command of the uprising by age nineteen.

The execution of the founder shook the movement but did not stop the uprising, rather it served to feed the flames of rebellion. Under John’s command, two Gatebreakers attempted to assassinate the new shah, and the royal reprisals began. Husayn was thrown into prison and John fled to Baghdad. Once released from prison, Husayn followed his brother and leader into exile.

John continued to lead the military campaign against the shah. He did so from hiding, disguised as a dervish. Husayn also went into hiding, leaving his wives and children and living as a mystic under an assumed name in the mountains of Kurdistan. Husayn, seemingly content with his peaceful, unentangled life among the Kurds, had no intention of ever returning to the Gatebreaker community in Baghdad. He could surely see that the militant movement was doomed, but he was eventually convinced to return. After his return, he tried to lead the Gatebreakers down a nonviolent path less antagonistic to the shah, but his brother, though growing less and less involved in the movement, would have nothing to do with nonviolence and alas, the damage was done. Husayn was unable to turn the tide that was about to carry him farther still from his home country.

In an attempt to mitigate the trouble that often arose around the militant Gatebreakers, the Ottoman Sultan moved the brothers and their families farther west to Constantinople, and then across the Bosphorus Strait into the European city of Adrianople.

Husayn saw that his attempts at effecting positive change were not bearing enough fruit. As the unofficial leader of the Gatebreakers, he lacked sufficient authority. Considering that his brother was undeniably the head of the movement—if only a figurehead, Husayn decided that he would have to stake a claim that would not contradict the title of his brother, so he leapfrogged John and declared himself the leader of a new movement and a new revelation. He claimed to be the Promised One whom the Gatebreakers had been fighting and dying for. That would make him the world-messiah; the Promised One, it followed, of all religions—at least the legitimate ones. He commanded the Gatebreakers to turn to him, and to obey him as sheep, and many did just that. His new flock adopted his name as theirs. He commanded them to be obedient to all authorities, to their parents and governments as well as to him. He commanded them to be peaceloving and nonviolent. He saw this as crucial for the survival of the movement.

John rejected Husayn’s claims and resisted his efforts, and matters between the brothers went from bad to worse.

In Adrianople, hard feelings and violence arose between the brothers, so they were separated from one another; one imprisoned on Cyprus and the other imprisoned in Palestine. Neither brother lived to see Iran again.

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Music of the Spheres

One day, while Armen was cleaning a toilet, an attractive Iranian girl walked into the restroom. Armen turned to her from the toilet and told her he’d be done in five minutes. She replied that she only wanted to invite him to a talk to be given that evening by a famous Recipient author. Armen couldn’t say no to such a pretty girl, so he accepted the invitation.

Armen was still working when the talk began. He was still holding a broom when he walked into the room. Strangely, the speaker wasn’t talking about memos or sublime buzzwords. Armen looked around uncomfortably. He didn’t see the girl, and he sensed he wasn’t the only confused one in the room. The audience seemed pleasant, but people here and there looked left and right as if for a street sign. Armen soon forgot his confusion as he got over his expectations. The speaker was an elderly man, maybe eighty, with a full head of grey hair. He spoke of mysteries, but strangely, not in Memospeak. He said that he had found that “the material is mental,” and he said there was a music playing in all things, giving examples such as an atom vibrating like a string. He called that music “the music of the spheres.” The old man talked about polarities in everything. “Contrast and struggle,” he said, “far from diluting beauty, only etch it deeper,” and he added, “Even light struggles against light.” He clicked a button and the projector moved to a slide that showed a ribbed light pattern. He explained that one light beam can interfere with another to produce darkness. This sounded nothing at all like the memos. “Who is this man?” Armen wondered. The speaker sounded more like a science evangelizer than a memo reader.

The Principle of Similitude: The Limits of Scale in Nature (Murchie)

 

After the talk, Armen began to sweep as the room cleared. A couple of Recipients asked the man questions, and just as the last of the audience departed, Armen approached the old man.

“You are an author?” Armen began.

“Sure,” the old man answered. He looked at the broom in the young man’s hands and asked, “You haven’t read any of my books?”

“No, sorry. I’m new here. I’ve never, uh—”

“You a Recipient?”

“No. I just work here.”

“But you attended the talk.”

“Yeah. I was invited.”

“Oh. How very nice. Did you enjoy it?”

“Yes; yes sir.”

“What about it?”

“Huh?”

“What did you like about the talk?”

“Uh,” Armen searched for an answer. “The superorganism, I think.”

“You a student?”

“Ah, no. I just work.”

“Ah, yes. You work. … Do you mind if I give you a little tip?”

“Sure. I mean, no. Not at all.”

“Don’t just work. Go to school. If you liked the talk, go to school. Do an old man a favor. Don’t let the superorganism die with me.”

The old man nodded and walked past Armen, but then he turned and held a large softcover book out to the young man. A great brown feather jutted out from between two pages like a bookmark. “Hold this, will you? ”

Armen received the book, and replied, “I—sure,” and the author turned and walked out.

Armen turned the book to see the cover. There was no title. The book was not professionally bound. It appeared to be a manuscript, or some such personal project.

Armen returned to his closet and put the book in his pack. He hopped on his bike and rode through the dark to his campsite. As he settled in, he lit a candle and opened the book.

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Interoffice Memoranda

Armen’s job at the pizza place didn’t last. He walked back down to the state Employment Development Department to look for his next job. He got something after a few days. This job was not in Santa Cruz at all, but up in the Santa Cruz Mountains near the community called Bonny Doon. He’d need a bike. It was a long, strenuous ride up the Empire Grade, a road that starts at the UC campus and climbs high into the mountains. The job would be at the encampment of what was known around Santa Cruz as “the memo cult.” It sounded a little weird, but it couldn’t be any stranger than Santa Cruz, and knowing that five bucks is five bucks, Armen didn’t think twice.

Armen found out that the members of the memo cult were fond of telling others about their religion, even a laborer like Armen—especially a laborer like Armen. They preferred to be called Recipients, short for the formal designation of their organization, “The Letter Day Recipients of the Memoranda of the Men on the Mountain.” They told him all about the memos for which their religion was named. There were six men—six was their holy number—who lived on a holy mountain. These clean-shaven greybeards would write up a memo every year, and sometimes they’d issue an additional memo for special occasions, say for instance, a bad day on Wall Street.

The Recipients believed that when these six holy mountain men convened, everything they did took on a sort of perfect quality. They could only do so many things in such a mystical state, however. They could only convene around a round table, which was about the right size for a poker game. They did not convene in the cafeteria or the men’s room, so the infallibility of their bodily functions was strictly constrained. In fact, they were only permitted to convene for the purpose of dictating interoffice memoranda. There would be no infallible poetry, infallible quilts, or even infallible folk music distributed from that table; not even the outcome of the infallible poker games that were played between memos. One of the Recipients showed one of these memos to Armen. It was written in a specialized language that the Recipients called Memospeak. It consisted almost entirely of obscure, multisyllable words that Armen recognized as English but couldn’t get to cohere. The sentences were all long; at least as long as the paragraphs. When Armen admitted to the Recipient that Memospeak made his head swim, the Recipient rejoiced, “I know! Isn’t it wonderful?” Armen politely received the memo, read it on his free time, and hoped that he wouldn’t be quizzed on the content. He was told that he was welcome to take classes to deepen his understanding of the memos and their language right there. In fact, the place where Armen was working was itself a Recipient school where Recipients would gather from all around to learn the meaning of the mystically worded memoranda.

It wasn’t easy for Armen to get to the Recipient colony from Santa Cruz, so he found a campsite on a patch of eroded granite in the woods nearby, and he used the Recipients’ showers with permission. The sunny granite clearing reminded him of the Range, which wasn’t entirely consoling. Everything was still too fresh in his mind. The touch of the intrusive bedrock unearthed hastily buried memories, and igneous intrusive dreams broke up his nights.

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Going Coastal

Armen pulled his thumb back and turned to walk. He felt the traffic rush by, and he reflected for a moment about how he had come to trust the traffic so much that he could turn his back on it when it was so dangerously near. He’d never really thought of that before, so far as he could recall.

He turned back to post his thumb up over the highway again, and again and again.

A microbus rushed past him, but it came to an abrupt stop just ahead. It dropped into reverse with a thump and rolled back onto the shoulder. Two surfboards were mounted on the roof, and two surfers were mounted in the front seats. “Miserlou” blew out the window. Armen hadn’t thought of the ocean until that moment, but when he got up to the passenger side window he conspired with himself and asked, “Heading to the coast?”

He took a seat on the edge of a makeshift bed in the back, thought water, and planted his feet on the floor as the bus cycled through its gears.

The passenger looked back over his shoulder and observed, “You look like you’ve been dragged in dirt, man.”

“Salt and pepper, hombre,” the driver corrected.

“Yeah, Chuck,” the passenger added, “you just escape from cannibals, man?”

“Naw,” Armen answered. “Just got caught in a couple dirty storms.”

“Whoa, dude. Heinous!” the surfers exclaimed in sync.

“Where’d you catch such a wild storm, man?” the passenger enquired.

“The Range—and Owens Valley.”

“Yah’haw, you look it.” The passenger spotted Armen’s fishing pole and asked, “how’s the fishing up there, dude?”

“Not bad. Kept myself fed.”

“No shit, man. You could live off those fish, I bet.”

“Sure. Might have to move around some.”

And so it went. Armen didn’t have much to say, but his hosts had questions, so he paid his passage with conversation.

The driver and the passenger shared a studio in Santa Cruz. They let Armen crash there until he found a job, which took him just short of a week. He’d had every intention of getting work. He didn’t know how he’d stay fed or sane otherwise. That was quicker than they’d expected, so they offered to let him stay longer, and he would have, had he not been netted by one of their friends, a biology student named Claire.

Claire didn’t mind sharing her bed with Armen until he could save up for a place of his own. Armen spent whatever time was spared by Claire and his job at the pizza place on the beach or on the pier; or at the library, if it happened to be open.

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